What was wrong with me that this has happened to me? What should I have done in this life to have effected the outcome? What was I paying for? And this woman yesterday took all those feelings of inadequacy and turned them on their heels.
Well I’ve taken the dive into psycho-therapy. I’m not sure what to make of it yet except that my doctor smiles a lot and has a note pad that he […]
I never felt like I deserved my husband, or my job and when I lost both it was confirmation in my head that what I believed all along was in fact true. I wasn’t worthy.
I am not a patient person. I do not like to wait. Don’t they say as you get older time goes by faster? Not if you are waiting. I am […]
It is time for me to stop running from the pain and to turn around and face it. And I’m scared. I’m afraid I’m not strong enough. I’m afraid of how much it will hurt to face it. And I’m daily fighting my impulse to take the easy way out. It’s hard. Almost an hourly battle. Maybe even minute by minute.
There is a time for everything as the Bible says, a time to laugh and a time to cry. This is my time to cry.
When I was ordering my glass of wine that he was off in a hour and would be glad share a bottle with me if I wanted to order that instead. HAH! People don’t say that and mean it right? I mean, they say that because they want a tip, I’m sure. I just laughed it off. Hmmm…
The moon that I looked up at, made wishes to and kissed under back then is the same one today. Same moon. And I just wonder if there really is somewhere out there for me?
I did not want to be alone. I did not ever imagine being a single woman with two teenagers turning 40. Nope. That was not part of the plan. But here I am anyway. Forced to figure out my way after getting my heart broken. So now, I’m making a first attempt at life on my own. Alone. And it’s scary.
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