Expect the unexpected and be happy with what you get. Go with the flow and everything will be more than fine.
Before I can teach it I have to live it. And I seriously have been lacking today. I was disappointed when I saw a picture of my ex up on Facebook with the-other woman. Then I read some posts. They were right there and I read them and they hurt.
I am still in awe of how I met this man. How is it possible that we could gel so perfectly, smile so much, and love so deeply? In my hysteria yesterday I entertained the horrible thought that maybe I had sent him away. Finally, he was seeing what my ex saw
Months ago I was like the struggling plant bought on a whim and then set aside in a dark corner of the house and only occasionally watered. I was weak, parched and leaned toward the sunlight as far as I could trying to survive. What little goodness I got I soaked up right away waiting and hoping for more where that came from. But now I’m growing by leaps and bounds. Let me give you an example.
But when he with so little sleep hit the road I got even more worried. 6,000 miles away trying to tell a man to take care of himself hasn’t worked out so good for me. “Martin, please stop emailing me and just drive.” I think I almost offended him but I was only saying it for his good. He didn’t listen. Again. I got a picture of blue skies and the road. A picture of an approaching storm. One that said, “I’m nearly there.” I refused to answer them.
To long days sitting, dreaming and breathing
too short are the minutes of quiet emptiness.
“All my bags are packed I’m ready to go
I’m standin’ here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
He needs a house but he’s got a home in me. When I’m with him, no matter where we are I’m good. I know I felt that way in England. And I think he feels the same way here.
Being replaced is harsh sometimes. It’s especially to upgrade when your old model is not working like you think it should either. Instead of bothering to fix it…sometimes it’s just easier getting a new one.
Got the computer back but WiFi still didn’t work. Email didn’t work. Was going to talk in the evening but got invited to a nice home cooked meal with coworker (everybody love him!!) Got home and was too tired. I understand. I really do! I just am really missing him at this point. I think because of all the silence MAYBE he was really on a plane and was going to surprise me! I was wrong.