I’ve been this girl. Hard core. I believed in a dream that was promised to me. I let that promise lure me into accepting less than I should have for […]
Sometimes life has this way of putting us in our place. We can build, and work, and plan, and think that we have everything under control and then something happens […]
After dating a year and a half I still greet Harry at the door. I still get excited planning meals for him. I still climb onto his lap to my […]
I don’t know what to do! Ever been there? I have. And usually what I do – after a good cry – is reach out to someone I trust who […]
I’ve put on my philosophical hat today…so bear with me….I know this will sound sappy, but I’m trying hard to put into words a phenomenon that has in many ways […]
he moment you hang suspended in midair just after being pushed into a pool of water there is this sense of reckless abandon. What’s done is done. In less than a second you know, your entire body will become enveloped in a rush of water that is much colder than expected. It will invade craters in your head shocked by the submersion, muffling your senses toward an oblivion you had only imagined in dreams before. Or were those nightmares.
There are only a few pages left to my current chapter in life. Three months and my daughter graduates. Six months and she’ll be moving into dorms. And me? Let me tell you what I HOPE happens and why I am hoping so much!
Yes it was a wake up call. But it’s also been on the job training. The journey is preparing us. And I know I’ve probably said this before and it really didn’t pan out for me that time. BUT DAMNIT I don’t want to stop believing. And Harry is not Slimeball.
Before Harry had to leave after lunch on this beautiful Sunday, I kissed him with everything I had and I thanked him for making the choices he did this weekend to be with me and my kids, to take me to the movie, and to go to church. He teared up and said that he has a lot of things going on his head. He called this weekend magical, said he was on a high. And I asked him if he could describe it in one phrase what would it be? And he said, “Heaven.”
I had two significant dreams last night. One was about Harry. We were driving in a car together and I was reading. It was at night. All of sudden he said, “Crap.”