But it’s truly happening. When I first met him I remember telling my mom not to worry he was just a nice guy who I’m chatting with who lives half a world away and nothing would ever come of it. I literally did not fathom how far we have come. And now we are so very close
I truly don’t know why they became a theme for me in my dreams but for 13 years they would appear vividly imprinting my brain. My last tornado dream to date happened right after my ex moved out.
When he got home I practically attacked him with kisses thinking that he would be pleasantly surprised and I was shocked when he held my wrists, pushed me away and said, “What are you doing?” Not in a wow that is nice sort of way, but in a get off of me sort of way. I was heart broken. Truly. It was a defining moment. From that time on my antenna was up. And from that moment on I began trying much harder to show him how much I loved him.