In the Trenches


Highs are cool. Perfect nights like Harry and I had on Thursday. But highs do not sustain a relationship. Nor does normal life. I know a ton of couples who have “normal” and are wallowing in unfulfilled boredom. No – what really makes or breaks a relationship is how they handle stress. When someone or something snaps how is that person a support to you – or not. It’s like the normal days you get up, you train, you prepare, you live. The parades you boast and celebrate. But it’s in the trenches where you see what you’re made of.

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At a Crossroads


It appears I’m in a catch 22. Either way, for right now, I lose. My heart is broken because I love Harry so much. He is everything I’ve ever wanted. While we don’t agree on everything we have a deep connection because we treat people and need people in almost identical ways. We are a rare breed. I’ve never met anyone this close to who I am at my core ever before.

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What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger


Less than three years later I found myself dealing with another painful break up. It felt all too familiar. But this time I knew that the pain would eventually end. I just didn’t know when. I learned from my mistakes and I knew I didn’t want to jump into another relationship. That didn’t work out so good the first time. I wanted to do this all natural. Get through the pain on my own.

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New Countdown


Martin and I are in as good a place as we have ever been. He’s done nothing like he was doing before. No more disappearing. No more saying he was too tired to talk or too busy or sick. No more weirdness. None. Could it be that he’s learned his lesson? Oh Lord? Could it be?

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