no words today. Just this song.
Good-bye 40 and hello to a new year. I pray that it is less eventful than the last. I pray that I am delightfully surprised by what happens next in my story.
This is the real deal. Not a fantasy. Not a fairytale. Not a movie. Real life. And I for real am in love. Head over heels but eyes wide open in love with a flawed but tender spirit who fills me up. He is more than he is not. I know this to be true.
Got the computer back but WiFi still didn’t work. Email didn’t work. Was going to talk in the evening but got invited to a nice home cooked meal with coworker (everybody love him!!) Got home and was too tired. I understand. I really do! I just am really missing him at this point. I think because of all the silence MAYBE he was really on a plane and was going to surprise me! I was wrong.
Speaking of hard times, I had a hard day. But not as hard as some. I made $200 extra bucks cause of a photography job. I have a nice warm (too warm but that’s just cause of the sun) house to live in. I am counting my blessings for sure. Because my colleague from an old job is dying.
Life still goes on you know? The dogs still need attention, the trash still needs to be taken out by me, the kids still fight – but I just don’t feel that enormous sense of loss that I felt before.