My Prayer Tonight

Most of you know I’m a Christian and tonight it is just spilling over.  Thank you for allowing me to indulge in a night of prayer for things that are weighing heavy on my heart.

Lord, first thank you for loving me.  For forgiving me when I didn’t deserve it.  For showing your mercy to the world and in my life and for changing my heart to want more of you.  I’m not perfect Lord.  You know my failings.  You know my weaknesses.  And yet still you love me and that thought alone blows my mind.  Thank you for sending Jesus to die on the cross for my sin.  And there are so many sins.  But you stood in my place and paid my debt so that I could be clothed in your righteousness and stand before you only because of your grace and my acceptance of that grace.

First let me pray for people I love who are hurting.  My coworker who is in the hospital because of bad tests.  I love him Lord and he is working every day for your kingdom.  He has a wife and kids who love him so Lord, if it is in your will, please heal him quickly.  And while we wait the outcome please give him comfort and peace knowing that the worst of all possible scenarios is eternity with you in heaven.  Help him to stay positive.  In many ways he is the reason I have the life I now have.  He got me my current job almost single-handedly.  And I’m grateful for him.

And for my friend’s 15-year-old daughter who is across the country alone on an academic trip and is sick.  Please keep her safe and help her to have a good time.

I pray for my sister who had pre-cancer cells removed from her cervix that no more come.  For my son that he stay true to his faith with his new-found adult status and freedom that comes with it.  For my daughter to be brave in the face of scary decisions about school and college.  For my ex-husband to stay healthy and strong in body and mind to be a good leader and father to my children.  For his job that it grows and is steady.  For his spiritual life that through everything that happens to him in life good or bad…that it draw him closer to you.

I pray for my Harry.  For his health both mental and physical.  For his business that he make wise, honest, and fruitful decisions that will provide for him and his employees in the future.  I pray for his sleep, that it come easily.  I pray that you touch his precious heart.  I thank you for his friendship and his love.  Please help our relationship to grow into everything you want it to be.  Help me to see that path clearly.

Lord for me help me not grumble when things don’t go exactly how I want them to.  Help me to hold loosely to my own plans and accept things as they come when you give and when you take away.  Help me to be simply grateful for it all.  Help me to have an attitude of service to my children, to my friends, to my family.  I’ve come so far – help me to keep my focus on the things that please you and not on things that don’t.

I have fears sometimes.  I have doubts.  I struggle with issues and fight with other people and myself regarding them.  Help me to continually put You first.  Help me to be a good representative of You to everyone I know.  With kindness, joy, love, gentleness, self-control, patience, and love.  And Lord, not many of those come easily to me.

Heal my back please…it’s still hurting everyday.  I can’t really afford to go to the doctor about it cause I know they’ll just order a bunch of tests that I have to pay for …so help me to be healed or to learn way to cope so the pain isn’t so distracting.

Help me to be wise as I lead my family with our finances, and with molding my children’s tender hearts …and in everything I do help them see the goodness of You.  So there is no mistake that the only possible way I can be who I am is because You live inside my heart.  But when I fail help them to forgive me and see your compassion as a true lesson as well.

Lord forgive me when I put myself first.  When all I can see is me.  Help me to decrease and you to increase so that I have joy in all I have been called to do.  Being a single mom is not easy and it is getting harder.  Financially, I’m frightened.  Paying for college and cars is a scary thought after my ex stopped paying child-support for my 18-year-old on top of it.  It is a heavy burden.  Spiritually, I fear I am not pointing them to you enough.  Help me to just rest in knowing I’m doing my best and as you always have that you will provide for our needs.

Thank you for helping my sleep be easy in the midst and despite all these concerns.  Thank you for helping me not feel as lonely as I used to when I am alone.  Thank you for anything you’ve done to help others through  my story through this blog.

I love you more than anything or anyone.  Help me to act like it.

As my favorite chapter of Scripture instructs….

Colossians Chapter 3 NIV

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your[a]life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.[b] You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11 Here there is no Gentile or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16 Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. 17 And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

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