Only Hope

I’ve learned in this short life of mine (not in years really, it’s just that it seems to have gone by so fast so far) that hope is a tricky thing.  If you hope in the wrong thing it will disappoint you.

In the past I have hoped for outcomes, most notably my father’s healing, and the healing of my marriage.  My lesson learned from that is that I can not hope too tightly for a certain outcome.  I can and will pray for it.  But my hope is in the Lord.  And ultimately no matter what happens in my life, I know that I will be okay.

Easter week Martin and I watched The Passion of the Christ.  There is one scene in particular that chokes me up every time I see that movie and I try to once a year.  It is the scene where Jesus is carrying his cross through town and struggling.  His mother Mary is trying to get close to him and just as he comes into her line of sight he falls and she has a flashback of him falling as a young child and her dropping everything to run to him as quickly as she can to give him aid.  It flashes back to the present and she runs to him with the burden and hurt only a mother could have felt.  Amazing love that he went willingly to his death for my sin.

His sacrifice showed His love for me.  It pardoned me.  It gives me my only true hope.

People will let you down.  They are flawed no matter how hard they try.  But God was faithful, is faithful, and will always be faithful.  And I am so encouraged by that truth.

No matter what happens with Martin.  No matter what happens period.

Only Hope – by Jon Foreman

There’s a song that’s inside of my soul
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write
over and over again
I’m awake and in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and
over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You are my only hope

Sing to me of the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have
for me over again

I give You my apathy
I’m giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I’m giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You are my only hope

3 responses to “Only Hope

  1. There you go. I am glad you have that peace of trusting in the Lord. I love it when I realize that for the most part, I am walking by that peace now – the best part is that I see how God keeps me safe when I trust in Him. My daughter and I are making it and I just at times don’t know how except for the fact that He has our backs. Oh, I wanted to share with you. Her father called two weeks ago and wants to come back to the US and be with us. Nothing has worked out for him as he planned over there. He’s still unhappy. I keep reminding him that wherever he runs, he will be there and that he needs to quit running and turn his life back over to God. I have no idea what that chapter holds except for the fact that although I would love marriage restoration, I would never go back to being a weak woman because God has so restored me. God has given me a huge peace in waiting and being right with Him and trusting that wherever He leads will be His will. I was amazed though at how I have changed in the midst of hearing words I would have given anything to hear just 9 months ago. Now I know I won’t give up me anymore. God is great.

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